Brittany

I’m a wife and mother and had a deep love of opiates over everything else which began after having a family. Trying to keep up and do everything I didn’t want to do happily or have the energy to do willingly. I remember thinking the common addict thought “how do people do life without opiates” its like sliding into a warm bath. I had no clue how common it is to even have that thought until Dopey. It made sense that I loved Tim’s story so much bc when I listened to the Brandon Novak episode I was in a fucking dark place and just discovered Dopey. Go figure they are friends! At that time I was figuring out which road to follow addiction or sobriety.. I was losing everything my marriage, my house, and almost my child. I was so close to saying fuck it, ive already destroyed my life, i can’t afford a nice rehab- fuck i can’t even afford my bills. I’ll just run away and continue not facing life. I sure as shit didnt want to face withdrawal when my life was together how the hell can I manage it when everything is falling apart. So I almost reached out to Novak regarding rehab, but walked myself into a maintenance program instead. It was harder to ask for help than I thought it would be, I cried the entire intake. They were so kind it made me cry harder. Methadone helped me immensely, I even stumbled upon the Maia Szalavitz episode my first week into the mat program, I couldn’t adore her more. I could immediately function most of the day and had minor withdrawal at night.. it wasn’t perfect but it saved my life for sure, it’s not an if but when fentanyl will get you.. that’s not even my drug of choice just what I could afford and find.